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jazzmancia:

jazzmancia:

hey, y’all.

so, i know i’ve been saying and saying and saaaaaying that i was going to find a therapist and do something about all my crazy and then i never do it, but i did. 

i finally did.

my first session is next monday. i’m really anxious, but really kind of excited. maybe excited is not the right word. it’s more that i am just looking forward to finally get a bunch of stuff off my chest and get help from an actual professional. i want to make progress. i don’t want to be this way anymore and the hardest part was just walking into the damn office and saying that i need help, but i did it and i can’t wait for monday.

Wow.
I can’t believe that it’s been 8 weeks.
And that it’s over.
That’s crazy.

Like, I totally feel a lot better and am operating so much better as a human being. And a lot of things that were really the driving force behind my decision to see a doctor are like, not even an issue anymore and other things, I’m working on. I’m working on all of it.

I’m no longer seeing Dr. Lopez cause my time with her is up, but she did refer me to a long term doctor and I will be starting that in a few weeks. I could start immediately if I wanted to, but I want to be on my own for a second. I need to put some things into practice and finish the book she wanted me to read and see how that all goes, and after that I’m going to start up with my new doctor. Unless something happens that throws a wrench into all of that of course.

You guys, if you feel like you need to see a therapist or a counselor, do it. Do not be ashamed or scared or think less of yourself or any of the other crap that holds us back from seeking help. It is incredibly courageous and brave to ask for what you need. It is not weak. It is not dumb. So few people are willing to ask for what they need and instead suffer through painful situations and environments. Love yourself enough to not do that to yourself. 

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